Differences

Have you ever done something knowing that you'll feel bad afterwards ? Have you ever seen something knowing that you should not , and then regret and stop it right away ? Yeah , I did . I just did . And it sucks .

明明知道自己不可能会是别人，可是就很想当别人。I can't help but feel down . It's like I wanna cry so bad , but I can't . What I can do now is maybe going to the toilet , or facing the other side and sob silently . What I saw was a conversation that a couple should have , and that breaks my heart even more . It's like , why am I treated SO differently ?

Have you ever wanted to withdraw after giving in so much ? Have you ever changed so much for someone ? HAH . Don't even try . If you're lucky , you'll get a positive response . If not , a negative response will hurt you so much more , much more than you thought you will feel . Knowing that you deserve much more but settling for something lesser . Hoping to get something better but not willing to let go . That pain , that fear . When you sacrifice so much , you become more fearful of losing that something . And when that fear builds up , you try even harder to keep that something close to you . By keeping that something too close sometimes , it seperates you two even more . It's just so hard to draw the line .

为什么有些人就能够得到那么多，而有些人只能得到那么少？为什么我是那个少的人？Why is that so ? Well , maybe I've gotten too much .. It's time to give in . Haha . Sometimes it's better to let go than to hold on . At least it hurts you once than hurting you for so long ..

I shall take some time to ponder .. On what's worth and what's not .