Hey ... I know you don't like me tweeting about everything , you prefer me telling you everything . Since you don't text me , don't call me , maybe you don't have time for me , so I'll just write everything here . Whether or not you'll read , I don't know , but I hope you did ...

‘不要meet哪里叫couple’ 这是你说的。Then what about not talking the whole day ? 那样就是你说的couple吗？Do you know what I feel the whole day , sitting there , having nothing to do , just waiting for the chance to talk to you ? Do you know what it feels like to be treated like a princess yesterday and treated like nothing today ? ‘你害怕失去我’ so is not texting me , not talking to me showing me that you're really afraid of losing me ？I don't know how you express yourself towards me . Towards other people , I know . You always make time for them . I know you meet me a lot , your friends and family are your priorities , but I'm still important , right ? Do you know how guilty I felt yesterday when you ask me to stop sending those texts ? But do you know what I'm feeling right now , like an idiot for being guilty . You told me you can't bear to let me go home , just that I didn't feel it . Of course I can't feel it . When you walk off , you didn't even turn back . You call this can't bear ? Yesterday I felt it , because you held me so tightly ..

I'm curious , really curious . 你难道不想知道我今天过得好吗？Missing someone is very obvious , you can't stand not talking to that person , you wanna meet that person so much , but what you always do shows the opposite . How am I suppose to believe that you miss me ?

To be honest , 3 months ago , every time you text me , there will always be a smile of my face , sometimes even a giggle . I'll always show my friends and say ' eh see ! He very sweet hor ? ' Now ? If my friends wanna see our message , I'll say ' see what ? Nothing to see la , we always never talk . ' Do you know how much it pains me to say that ? No you don't .

You're lazy to text , lazy to talk on the phone . You didn't text me today because your phone has no battery . Your battery flat since 6 in the morning ? I didn't receive your morning message , and you think it's fine ? No it's not fine at all ! I asked you , you told me your cousin visited you . You can't text me , fine , but can you explain why you can reply to tweets and not give me a text ? I didn't text you the entire day because I kept telling myself you're busy , you're in school , you can't text . But every time I enter twitter , go to your profile and saw that you replied people's tweet , I get so upset .. When people tweet , even her , you'll reply some nonsense , but not to me . You rather talk to your friends , your ex but not to your girlfriend . Why ? I replied you ' not like me :/ ' when you tell me your cousin visited you for lunch . You know why ? Because I ain't as nice as your cousin to go down there and have lunch with you . If I go down , I'll be left alone too , so why should I ? When I go and find you everyday , I'll have to accompany myself , sometimes give you faces to let you know that ' hey I'm around , please don't forget me , don't ignore me , I still here , I have not went home , I'm not asleep '

You know what ? There are people everyday who spend some effort texting me , calling me , asking if I'm alright , tweeting me to make me smile again , asking if I have had lunch , if not do I want anything . There's people who are trying so hard to meet me , week after week , even though my reply is always ' sorry , i'm busy ', ' sorry , I'm working ' , ' I wanna go alone '. But I don't even have a chance to say ' OKAY , I will go down and find you right now ' because you won't even ask me out . You just know that I'll be there everyday . There'll always be people who knows that I'm down when I say ' I'm fine ' . Those are what you're suppose to do , but you AIN'T doing any . You wanna ask people to watch movie with us during our anniversary , what the ? I'm getting my O level results tmr , people have already wished me good luck , you ? I gotta ask you if I'll get a longer text from you than usual ..

I know my temper is bad , but it's coz I'm insecure . I'm afraid that girls will just get you when I'm not around , I'm afraid girls will get all your attention when you don't talk to me . But what you're doing makes me feel even more insecure . When I get angry , all I want is a hug , but what do I get , your attitude .

You want us to talk it out every time I feel paranoid , but you'll end up thinking that I'm so effing paranoid . Like what your friend called me , paranoid eff . So why do I bother ? I rather tweet , you see , you understand , we don't talk about it , than I tell you , you get angry , I get scared , I cry , you get angrier , I go home alone .

It sucks to cry at home alone while you're out there having fun , not knowing how I feel . I don't wanna feel this way , like an overly attached girlfriend .. But I'm just that afraid , afraid that one day you'll leave . I'm afraid that the moment we don't talk , girls flirt with you , and somehow , feelings grew . You'll never know , and that's how much I want you to myself , just to myself .

Sometimes I feel so demoralised that the only reason I thought of that you treat me this way was you loved her more . Of course , she's way prettier , way skinnier , maybe way more caring than me , temper way better than me . The way you both used to text and the way we text .. Wow , the difference .. Even a blind man can see .. Should I give up caring ? Should I give up missing you ? Should I approach all those who give me their time and effort since you don't ? Well , I guess you won't even wanna know what my answer will be.

I just want you to love me as much as I love you . Did I do anything wrong ? You're nice , so sweet ( when you wanna be ) , so caring ( when you wanna care ) , good looking . Who doesn't wanna get you ? Just think about it . Just understand me , understand why I get so paranoid every time .