' If you think you're leading but none's following , you're just taking a walk '

Had service today . Suppose to meet Kumar at 12:30 but i waited for half an hour , zst .. I have very little patience can ?? Haiyo , my day was .. 4/10 ? The part meeting Grace was the part with laughter can ?? Lol , without Grace and Joyce , my life will be lika black and white .

MIND BLANKING .. Shit .

People who knows me ,  think that i am a cheerful girl , always laughing , like the sunny type of person . People who don't know me , think that i am very hateful , always grumpy , like a ah lian type , fierce , unreasonable and all sorts of bad stuffs . However , people who understands me , know that i am cheerful but only outside . They know that i have lots of things keeping inside of me .They'll be the people who will see me cry like a small girl who has lost her way . They'll know all sorts of little complains that i will make . Now you know which category you are ?? Hahaha ~ Many are the people who knows me category .

Who am I ? Who understands me ? I bet only a handful knows me , other than my mom . Even my dad is the people who knows me category . Hmm , am i really that hard to understand , or do i not open to people enough ? Fuck cares larh , haha . I don't even know what i've become already . Down , down and down the whole day . My smiles are so fake infront of people who knows me . Infront of people who understands me , i will always be pulling my face . It's hard to smile infront of my friends nowadays , yah , i will larh , to cover my sadness . I dislike it when people ask ' why you so emo ? ' , ' why so sad ? ' This kinda question . I realise i can only be myself infront of only people like Grace and Joyce , but why ?? Perhaps i have too many flaws which i am afraid to show out , huh ?

FML .