' Choices seems so clear when we aren't ask to make , but when we are , it's tougher than what we've thought '

Is life getting harder , or am i getting weaker ? I used to come up with conclusion without hesitating much , or no hesitation at all . But what's up with me this time round ? Sigh .. Fucked up .

I have totally no guts this time round . I do not have the courage like what i use to have . In the past , i do what i preach . But now ? I can tell people to do all sorts of what seems to be easy things , but i just can't do it myself .. 

SHIT .

It's damn hard to follow my heart . Should i follow my heart or my brain ?? But it seems that none of them have made up their mind . I can't follow anything . I am confused .

Self-study started . It's damn tiring i must admit . But i find it quite fun leh . Somehow or rather , i like self-study (: