Trust

So this is how it feels like hugging someone's photo tightly because you're just so afraid that you might lose them..

That day at the pool, I've already figured out what you guys were talking about. I got upset, not because the swimming session was cancelled, but because I know what you guys are talking about. You guys kept secret about her within yourself. How cruel..

Yesterday, it just happen to flash pass my eyes the word 'eyeliner' on my timeline even though it's not there at all. My intuition tells me something's wrong.

Yes, I'm sorry I started thinking way too much again. I chat with some people, I've got information which I'm not suppose to know, and it hurts.

How does it feel when your boyfriend starts talking with his ex again?

I have no proof whatsoever, but will the information be given to me just to hurt me for nothing? I don't know. The moment I close my eyes, many scenes appear. I really want to just flag a cab, go straight to your house, and hug you.

I really can't tell you this through texting. I just can't bring myself to say this calmly without an inch of doubt. I don't want to name somebody and start unnecessary conflict. I don't wanna fight with you either.

Well, like I said. Since you've said no, I trust you. It's a risk for me to trust someone like this. I really want all this to end up like how I comfort myself, 'just friends'.

I love you.