Everybody plays a part , just like how the pretty rainbow is made by so many colors .

Today is filled with ups and downs .. Quarrels are everywhere , surrounding me , making me feel like I am drowning , but why ? Is it like what Pastor Kong had said ? The overall same denominator is .. Me . So am I the cause for all the quarrels ? After so many years of quarreling with so many different people , i realize , i am the only common thing among all quarrels .. I guess it's time for me to really change over .. Looking back at the previous and current me , the previous one was much better . More gentle , quieter , and always acheive very good results in school .. But now ? So violent , so noisy , failed almost 70% out of 7 subjects subjects . I used to be so humble , now , so proud . I dislike me , just like what my father had said , he dislike me , he is sick of me .. Actually , I am really sick of myself -.- So very tired , restless , no motivation to move on at all .. No matter how much i change my appearance , my character crush them down .. I really feel so bad , just like a bitch ..