I just can't stop but think that i am a failure .

Today is a school holiday for my school , HBL & Sports Day . And this sports day , literally make me lose all my hopes for sports .. I feel like quitting liao .. I chiong , did my best for the first event 4X100 , came in first . So damn happy , but what we got ? A KeyChain with the word first ?!! What rubbish ? Rest so long till the last event 100 m Girls .. Already so cooled down , how to run .. First time giving up when reaching the finishing line , i am really a failure sia .. Came in forth .. But i know where i stand , so .. Sigh ... 

Seriously , i hate myself sia .. F&U

I hate myself for giving you problems . 

I hate myself for not being able to understand things in school . 

I hate myself for all stupid things i've done . 

I hate myself for being such an idiot . 

I hate myself for being such a failure . 

I hate myself for mistreating myself .. 

I hate myself for trying to pretend ..