It's hard not to cry .. 

Ah Bi , i think euu sleep lerh barh , though i at eur house , posting this here , is a bit weird .. Euu asked my why i cried ? But what i can say is i love euu , to tell euu the truth what i am scared about . Is that i am scared there will be another person . All the insecure from the past was brought here , i cnt let it go , it hurts && the hole in my heart is still there .. I know euu need space , but i need to feel secure first before i can even let euu go .. I am crying while posting this , i dun think euu will ever know . People can say what they want , but i know what i want . I am crying again for love , for euu .. I don't ever wana cry for boys anymore , but i cnt . I always fall for this , it's time i grow up right ? It's time i harden my heart , so i wun love much , i wun be hurt much .. I dun wana put too much in a relationship as i am scared to be hurt .. But guess what , i put in too much && now i cnt take it back .. I love euu , since i cnt take back . I am gonna give it my best and all , I really need euu , i really cnt let euu go with eur friends but since euu need to , i will ! For eur sake ..