I finally realise 

Hey people , i am back . Such a good girl today (: went to baby's house && let him have a shower && went straight home , not bad right (: Didn't eat any lunch today , i am super moody ~ Dun ever talk about results ... But the happy thing is i manage to get an A1 for maths , && all those vending of stress on art , didn't make me fail (: I got a 62 , && i am happy (: 

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I am motivated to work for the better , but the thing is .... I really cnt larh . I wana be a guai kia , seriously guai type ... But haix ... I really cnt stop scolding baby , perharps , i lost my feelings for him lerh ); Haix ... I vry confused larh . It's been so long since we ever enjoyed ourselves together , && i am missing that feeling . I pray that God will help me in settling my relationship part && my emotional part . Amen ~ 

 Am i really loving euu ?

Or am i only leaning on euu ?

Haix ... I wana break .

But the feeling of euu leaving me is vry bad . 

I cnt bear to let euu leave me , but i hate euu . 

In some way or another , i just hate everything about euu . 

Haix ... Maybe is coz of the trust for each other barh . 

I hope we will improve , sorry baby