happy birthday papa.

current mood : sad , lovesick , angry . 
current song : watch secretly .
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woke up at 6+ today coz slept on mama bed yesterday den whole hands and legs itchy , den scratch till du lan jiu wake up bathe den back to my room to sleep . dardar reach at 9 buden i nvr receive no calls from him so i thought he haven come jiu continue sleep :D den till 9:45 lidat den wake up called his mama and ask where he . den his mama say he come find me liao , i jiu go open door wana wait for him end up he already sitting outside waiting lerh , 对不起<3 . den jiu watch felix the cat ( cartoon ) lame i know . mama came back , buden me and him eat hao liao copz i fried rice again . mama bought the XXXL from JP , tyvm mama <3 . ate den jiu bring my lappy go down r-epair . while waiting , went to E-NET Lan play awhile end up spent about $3 - $4 . played left 4 dead coz audition patching , den played 3 - 4 games jiu saw ppl play audi jiu chiong to play audi . r-etrieve my com while playing left 4 dead . his mama spam my HP 8 times , 8 miss call leh ! mama msg me liao so log out and go meet mama . dardar help me bring lappy to home , jiu off to JP find his mama liao .
is papa birthday tat's why mama msg me ask me come back den end up papa friend downstairs drink beer , he jiu go chap in . end up nvr celebrate , WTF kampua dulan derh okay ! we bought whole spring chicken , den i cooked rice so eat together . end up papa took the chicken to his friend there and eat , meaning ? celebrate there uh , why lidat ?

i said goodbye forever to euu but i nvr say i wana break,

so euu mai think so much . but a promise is a promise , i said that i will

not message or call euu and i mean it . can say tat i wana let 

euu know thee feeling of keeping the wrong promise and breaking the

correct promise . as for the match tomorrow , i will still say JY <3

but i wun go find euu lerh , and euu dunid to come find me anymore . 

maybe some other time i will go coz i will calm down sooner

or later but as for now , maybe euu will be left out uh , i might not notice

euu or as in ignore euu for the time being . coz maybe we need 

to think what is accompany and the feeling of loneliness .